I think my body has finally let go of its death grip on every calorie I’m eating. The scale is starting to move. I wish it had started to move sooner, but hey, I’ll take it.
Yesterday, one of my incisions’ steristrips came undone after shower, and this AM, I sat down and noticed something felt weird. The incision is gaping on one side just at the skin level. Boo. No infection or draining, just peeled apart a little bit, about 1/4 of an inch. I called the doc’s office, they told me to go get wound closure strips and put it back together. So that is what I did. I hope it heals correctly!
Today was also my first day back at work, at least a partial day, about 6 hours. It went fine. I am lucky enough to be able to work from home as much as i want. In fact, most all of my team, spread all across the country, works from home. I actually do usually go into the office three days a week, to see other humans and feel connected somewhat to my employer. I don’t actually work with any of the people I sit with, so its kind of weird, but I sit just down the hall from my brother, so that is cool, since he is a cool brother. 😀
generally I feel better each day, still have twinges and pains now and then, and have difficulty bending down to pick stuff up off floor. I was able to take my longest walk yet, and no nap. So a red letter day, I guess 😉 As far as what is going on recovery wise — still on full liquids until next Wednesday, when I start 3 weeks of soft foods. Have settled into a sort of general routine that gets me about 600 calories a day, and 70 grams of protein, and all my water so that is good. one nice thing about working at home is that it is easier to manage all this stuff from home.
I am doing lots of reading about other activities for self soothing rather than food, and also trying to meditate more. its helpful. Meditating, reading, and knitting are saving activities right now.
I had a good time yesterday calling into my first WLS support conference call with Tracy Stevenson of mytinytank.net, mandapanda and squeeziemama. It was good to talk with others who have been down this road and learn from them. The topic was non scale victories, and I am happy to say I’ve already seen some of these. It got me to thinking about all the things that led up to me finally deciding on WLS:
1. Trip to DisneyWorld in July. For a morbidly obese person, that should be ’nuff said. I was chafing and miserable, but still enjoyed the park. I had to make a run to walmart to buy leggings that would keep my legs from rubbing together under shorts. Just what a fat sweating lady needed, is an additional later of clothing. Each night, I would have to peel down to undies, use a chafing ointment and lay in the bed just trying to recover from the pain. I had ordered some moisture wicking type shirts and packed them in their packages right into my bag. One was a columbia size 3x, andI was so disgusted that it didn’t fit, it was gapping open and tight, I couldn’t wear it. I wore it two days ago — it was loose. That was an awesome NSV.
2. Traveling frequently — having to ask for a seatbelt extender each time I got on a plane. I am sure that the next time I get on a plane, I won’t need one! I barely needed it, but i bet now I won’t need it — NSV to come!
3. In september — broke one of our dining chairs sitting on it. Yes. you heard me. I was so mad and embarrassed. No NSV to match that, except to say that most chairs have a 250 lb limit, and I am now under that, so feeling safer. You just haven’t lived until you’ve BROKEN something you were trying to sit on.
4. I am getting my waist back! Up until about the 240 lbs mark, I am lucky enough to still have a waist. I haven’t had a waist for a LONG time. But my hubby noticed that I once again have a waist that goes in instead of just being straight down. That makes me feel more womanly.
Ok, so that is all I can think of at the moment!
One last thing, spare some prayers for my BFF. She just let me know that her dad is in critical condition and they are likely going to have to make the terrible decision to take him off life support within the next day or so. I am so sad for her, and for him. Prayers going up for Denny.